Happy Birthday Gerry.

Today is his birthday! He's 35 years young as my mom likes to call it. My mother is a wise woman I think she unlocked something in me yesterday that helped me see what the hell was wrong with me. off to our list.

• I am a double edged sword. I sense things from people. I go off their emotions when they relate to me. If they're angry sometimes I get angry or if they're depressed most of the time I feel their pain. I've been in a super emotional, pissy ass mood and I couldn't figure out why. I thought "I'm going crazy.I will need new meds soon." I guess I'm hypersensitive and too much emotion leads me to feeling vulnerable which i don't like. I guess I like the part of me that can relate to you and feel for you. 
• I did make a "cake". I will NOT share it with you because well it's not really a cake. I made little gingerbread skeleton men-which thank you to Emily for being the expert rib and pelvis decorator! I also made a little patch of dirt for his candles and 3 brownie muffin thingies which i decorated...pretty much looked like a 5 year old made it, but what the hell, it worked and I did it!
• I'm not quite sure what we're doing today, we have tomorrow planned. I'm going to suggest the Cornmaze! Petaluma Cornmaze. we'll be in the area....

 Yes people looky here it's Dinocorn as DINOMOVER! In honor of Gerry's birthday.

• For us Blogger people we can see how many people have looked at our blog in one day, it's more like we can see how many visits and then we can see where it came from, like if it was linked from Google or another person's page etc....For example, yesterday i got 34 views. Woohooo me...right? Well where did they come from? Some referring sites are ESPN-must be the whole baseball thing and probably has to do with the pics i borrowed from their site, google images...which now becomes interesting....people look for the strangest things. I also get to see what people have typed into google that led them to me..look below...i just copied and pasted...but really??? Big Shitty muffin? How in the world did that lead you to me..Should have said heavenly large muffin....people...

how to train your dragon pumpkin

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winnie flags

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big shitty muffin

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colorful little pony

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french rolling pin for sale

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hilarious quotes

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immagini di winnie the pooh baby

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kim kardshian ass feed me

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pickle de winnie pooh

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rainymood qoutes

•  oh yeah...WEEEEEN!

•  and for those non Ween people, this helped me get dressed this morning...

• Fit day 2-I did 20 push ups, weights, jumping jacks and crunches like that poster says. I didn't do yoga or hike because i was busy with Gerry's am birthday surprise. but i still feel good. I did weigh myself and well i am unhappy with the number. If a month goes by and i haven't lost a thing, i'm trying the HCG diet. :)
• what else...oh i started picture project Aging Jacky...took picture 1. lol. we'll see how this goes. probably will scare the crap out of me in a year. Do I really want to do this???? 

Well i must do other things besides talk with you. Gerry wants to make an apple pie this weekend so that's part of the plan! It will be fun!

have a wonderful weekend and be safe. hugs!

What in the world happened to me?

I know i can't be perfect every day in this little life I have, but did you ever wake up and go what the heck??? What happened to me? Am I just moody this month, this year, this decade? what the heck? or maybe this time of year is harder for me. Maybe I'm sentimental about many things. I'm sensitive to everything, every word, every action towards me. I wish i was harder and sometimes I pretend to be. Maybe this is more than anyone needs to know. I woke up at about 5 am this morning from a dream where Gerry and I were looking at pictures from our past, i woke up uncomfortable and wondered where was that "me"? The me that lived on the house that the past built-where there were no regrets just lessons which pushed me to be a better person going forward?  Strange, huh? Let's get on with the show, shall we?

• Remember the other day I posted that picture on my  today is a new day post. Well i started, anyone else???? super easy. I also hiked and did yoga. Today I'm not hiking, but I will do yoga, day 2 of the starters exercise plan, wall squats and weights. I will weigh myself in 30 days using yesterday as the starting date, so let's see what happens. 
• I didn't make what i thought i was going to make yesterday which ofcourse you didn't know what i was making....lol that made so much sense. I made burgers! i am eating a patty right as we speak...err write...
• What I like about myself today? hmmm, i like my hair and makeup...does that count? I think i already went too deep today. 
• musica for you??? oh yes...

• alright so tomorrow starts the birthday boy's weekend. not really since he has to work, but if your birthday is on a friday you have a whole weekend to play bratty bday kid. 
• have you seen this??? are you a woman??? do you love chocolate? if you're a woman you love chocolate, so looky here...2 ingredient chocolate mousse HELLO heaven!!!! let's make this...
• precious moments are far to come by, hold them tight and remember them always.
• yes i do sound like a hallmark card there.
• ok i gotta run. try the chocolate mousse thing, enjoy the bangles and hopefully tomorrow we'll be fitter and leaner than yesterday....well atleast we'll weigh the same as the day before after the mousse..right?

Today is a new day.

Yesterday was not a good day, but today will be better. It has to be, because it's not yesterday, today still has to keep going before it eventually ends and then i can say whether or not it sucked. So, I am hoping that today is better than the past days because today is all i have....don't you just love reading my blog?

• This weekend is the big boy's birthday. Gerry will officially be older than me....he's always been older but it's a 4 month difference, so this is really the only time his age is different than mine. His birthday is on Friday. No plans for friday thus far. 
• We were going to a murder mystery dinner on Saturday but due to their double booking at different venues they canceled the show here. So October 22nd should be fun. We have to come up with aliases. I think I'm going to by Scarlet O'hara....or Ginger Rogers.
• I love the hair color i used last time i dyed my hair. I truly have to dye just the roots! BUT i forgot which company i used!!! DOH! i'm going for the l'oreal stuff this weekend. Keeping my fingers crossed that it matches.
• Coffee table update-We got it all. The tile and the stain! We have the rest of the items-grout and mortar, i guess...A friend of Gerry's said that he had the paint which was really close to the Candy apple red I want to paint the legs of the table...soooo...woohooo...now i just need time, a dry day and the tutoring of my dear friend Memphis. I can't wait for that day. 
• Mini Meditations. Only last about one minutes. Good for stressful work days or maybe escaping to the bathroom and doing these. Check out zen habits. 
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 if you need an exercise plan, i'll join you. But i'll also be doing my hikes, yoga and this. so let's do it together.

• i also need a mantra today "I will not get annoyed...I will not get annoyed" that may not work..."I will not punch anyone...I will not punch anyone" that may not work either.  "MAUI....MAUI...." ooh that works...
• you know sometimes you read something and say WOW that is what I'm saying...I have many people this quote goes out to....

and no that has nothing to do with Gerry. Apparently he loves me and I love him even when i want to kick him hard in the shin.

• ok i gotta cut it short peeps. I have stuff to do. thanks for reading....