Finding me?

Sometimes I feel pretty friggin low and I need to find a way to let it out either here or somehow in my hectic every day life. I find that it's hard to let everything out without hurting people.  I keep my mouth quiet and yet I wind up suffering.

Currently I feel like i'm being attacked in so many different directions that it appears I have spears aimed at me wherever I turn.  I know all of this will pass, but it's pretty hard when the people you do look up to,  don't seem to understand anything about you. 

I figured that today, I'd do things backwards. I'm reading all of the blogs I've missed out on and gathering inspiration or reaffirming something positive within me.

This blog is about random stuff so here goes:

1. I am proud of the beans I made yesterday. Actually it took about two days. Think raw beans, lots of water, chicken stock base, onions and garlic. COOK LOW for about 12 hours, then I switched to cook high for about two hours. I decided i wanted to have some "refried" beans, so i took my cool Smartstick hand blender and blended them until they looked like awesome refried beans. Put some cheese on top and my friends LOVED it. I felt pretty good about it! and i have some in the freezer for futurespanish meals! 
2. Bella is swell. She definitely doesn't behave as if she's just had surgery, she's acting like the pup we know and love. I am just praying that i don't need to use the cone of shame. we have this bite not collar and we've used it for all the other surgeries, so I'm hoping she'll leave that area alone. 
3. Sometimes we get all wrapped up in taking care of other people or our animals, that we forget to take care of ourselves. I found myself waking up with sore hips and pained muscles and calculated in my head that i hadn't been on a walk in about two or three days, because someone needed to stay with the pup. That's not acceptable.  I can't forget to take care of myself. One of the simplest medicines for us Fibro patients, is walking. Today i feel less pain and stiffness. 
4. Because it's always my fav...please check out texts from a dog
5. Check out Vixen Vintage, she's just amazing. Her photography, the clothes she wears...she's super adorable and I just love her style! 
6. ooh it's almost lunch time. 
7. So i think I have forgotten how to make my own coffee. One of my friends broke my coffee spoon AND in I also took a very long brewing break. So, this weekend i made coffee 6 times. NOT ONE CUP WAS PERFECT! either it was too strong or too weak. sigh. This morning my coffee came out, ok...a little strong. I have a new scooper so i'm hoping i can find the right amount of coffee to water ratio. 
8. Does someone need a picture? 

 ?? it's called hello kitty pastry? click the picture for more info??

Ok I gotta ask this super sensitive question....

WHAT IS GOING ON IN FB LAND? 

I am finding out that some people are just friggin coocoo. From the super righteous Christians against Gay Marriage to the woe-is-me-please-feel-sorry-for-me-because-i-treated-my-ex-super-badly-on-fb-and-now-i-want-to-whine-about-it.  I constantly feel like i want to tell people to shut up. Most of them I don't even want to talk to.  I get it, you don't like Gay people, well make a group of super hardcore Christians to share it with, because personally I don't care about your point of view. And as for you miss drama queen, take some more anti depressants and be honest with yourself. 

I know. It's my fault. I let these people in my life. And I'm too nice to delete some of them. OR to even speak up and say something about what i see. I am like many other Americans who don't stick up for what they believe in.  I think I will have to, going forward. 

There's a line in one of my favorite songs by Rise Against and it goes like this:

"If there's a God you better pray, that this sleeping giant never wakes."

I always get goosebumps when i hear it, because this line holds so many meanings for me. Like,  "HUMANS you should be very very very embarrassed with what you've done with this world." I truly believe if there is a God, we've all failed him (she, it etc) in one way or another.  Prejudice, murder of all types (animal and human), hate...ick...all of this just leaves me with a stomach ache.  I know i'm not perfect, but the first thing I learned in regards to God was to respect the things on this earth that he created. Such a sad world when so many people focus on hate and bigotry. 

That's all peeps. Probably too much for some to handle, but that's pretty much all i have to say. 

have a grand day.

This week flew by....

I must be doing something right! These days are going by smoother and a bit faster. Hopefully the weekend will go nice and slow so I can enjoy it. Don't you love when you're planning your activities and "cleaning the house" is on the top of your list? Since my body decided it didn't like me anymore (4 months ago) I've tried to do the best I can to keep up with the cleaning, but I can't do it on my own. Hopefully Gerry will get the hint-I've repeated it like 10 times at various times. I wonder when it will sink in. He's become super glued to the dune buggy project, which is nice-we've had the dune buggy for like 3 years-but i need him to help me clean. It will only speed up the process. Isn't it funny when men clean they do an area and then they have to rest?????  Women clean and they make sure the whole room is immaculate before they go on to another room and at the least start part of it before they can take a pee break and drink some water. I hate dragging out cleaning. It shouldn't take a whole day. It should be like 4 hours tops (depending on the size of your home), but with two people that's a lot of area to cover. I have a goal and it's a nice clean house to come back to after our trip. Keep your fingers crossed that Gerry doesn't turn into a 4 year old when i make him clean the easiest rooms in the house-living room, sun porch, outside, and his side of the bed.

• Cinco de Mayo tomorrow...any plans??? Not sure yet on our end. We're meeting up with some friends tomorrow evening, so i'm hoping some Mexican is in order..Need help figuring out a yummy menu? Well remember that Carnitas is easy-think Crockpot! I may need to make this for Seis de Mayo? Also Guacamole!! My version of guac is pretty easy, just don't forget the salt. Think avocados, a little bit of onion, some tomato (or leave it out), lemon, garlic salt. I don't peppers in my guac because i don't want it spicy. Play around with it, but always taste, taste, taste!!! ok now i need some Guacamole...since I'm drooling, here's a pic for you to join in...

what'scookingamerica.net

•  Ideal on Ideeli-Day at the Derby-favorite item here is the Black nude floral strapless dress...very very classy and cute. $79.99

 Tommy Bahama outdoors items; think hammocks and towels.

• Hot on Hautelook-BBDakota and Jack-really pretty dresses. Favorite item here is a Jack Ward Dress 29 buckaroos....

 

I love wedges sale.

 mmmm fridays are fabulous don't ya think? I can't wait to go out to dinner with my friends tonight to thank them for helping with our pup-I cannot describe how much they're relieving my anxiety by being such great aunties. We're taking them out to the Cheesecake factory. I think I need to study the menu before we go....Have you seen the menu? It's a book? Maybe not War and Peace but a small novel has about the same amount of letters.  

• As a migraine sufferer, I love to give people more information about migraines. Lifescript's article Migraine Relief:10 Myths and Facts is informative. 
• Bella was a lot better last night...sounded like a piggy a couple of times, but she slept in her own bed (for a little while). Bella is like a child. When she's sick, she plops herself onto our bed and I cannot move her 72 lb body. It's like she knowwwws, I'm a weakling. Anyway, hopefully this reverse sneezing crap is going buh bye. 
• Because I'm sometimes a bit random...I realized that a lot of things have dual purposes...Like this cup in front of me-i can turn it into a vase! it would be a stupid vase, but you know reuse, reduce, recycle and stuff....so I began my search in investigating what can you do with tampons. They serve one purpose, but what have other people done with them??? well I can't look at such things here(blocker), please look at your own risk, but hey tamponcrafts.com  sounds like an innocent site. 
• As I was meticulously searching for about 5 minutes i realized that young girls these days are friggin lucky. Wikihow has an article on how to have the perfect first period. My experience wasn't terrible, i was bummed out for sure, but i had no idea what was going on. Sure i had health ed and stuff, but i think that happened after the period.   probably want me to stop talking about my period huh? ok...ending...this....topic.
• and because i'm in love with Textsfromadog.....

•  Alrighty, i gotta boogy...hope you all have a great day! be safe this weekend. Don't drink and drive. lot's o love. 

Another one bites the dust.

It's never ending, isn't it? Weekend, work, weekend, work. If you think about it too much it's really fucked up. Feels like you're in a washing machine spinning and spinning around. No wonder I find myself dizzy at times; ok it could be the lack of iron, fybromyalgia or whatever else, but I like today's analogy.  Really I wouldn't have it any other way, being at home too much would drive me batty, but I'm in one of those depressive funks where my anxiety and now fybromyalgia is keeping me at a standstill-who the hell pressed off on this cycle?  I need to exercise, but do not feel inclined to do so. Well, it is Monday. It's a good day to take a good walk after work and bring the pup. I have to for my thighs sake. :)

• My weekend was pretty chill. Besides Bella's top stitches popping off and giving me a heart attack AND spending a couple of hours at the vet on a Saturday, the weekend was still a good one. We did see the movie, The Raven and I really liked it. I'm a big fan of Edgar Allen Poe and was calling out the story (not really calling out, but more like mumbling) titles for each murder. hehehe.
• In a little over a week, Gerr and I will be in the NYC! I'm so excited! It's finally here (pretty much). AHHHH! I cannot wait. 
• I have to share with you this site I saw on purewow.com. Milk and Honey shoes, basically you make your own shoes. it's a fun site to play around on, but I made leather flats and the shoes were 195 bucks. Kinda pricey, but if you're interested in one of a kind shoes created by you, I would definitely check out the site. Also remember to check out purewow.com too. they're pretty awesome. 
• I do a lot for my..... errrrr readers, like you know try out new products and sign on to new websites such as Shoedazzle.com. You've seen the commercials. I know you have. So I had to check it out. Join me my friends!!! Let's be shoe whores together!!! I would like to add that this site is pretty cool. They also sell jewelry and give you outfit advice, etc...Kinda happy i joined!

•  Go check out Stubbydog again. There's a cutest dog contest. :)
• Hot on Hautelook-save up to 60% on Betsey Johnson sunglasses. They're a friggin steal. 
• Ideal on Ideeli-Madison Page. Think bright colors, patterns, classic but fun and frilly look and items are 25 and under. Wish I could shop...but i cannot!!!
• Alright...week two of salads. Really I feel like i don't need to eat so much, which is good. Had my morning smoothie, added some apple juice which just made it a little sweeter. I have a fajita-esque salad today-black beans; red, yellow and green peppers, carrots, green onions, some steak and ofcourse lettuce. I made a bit of spicy ranch to go on top but not too much. If i need to I'll use my balsamic vinaigrette for the rest. So far the salad thing is keeping me going. Now, i need more fruits for my smoothies. That project will wait until i get back from NY.
• Read this if you want to find ways to save calories by choosing which restaurants have the better/healthier version of what you want to eat...Eat this not that also has a list of 15 foods that cure-from berries that stabilize sugar to grapefruit which protects against lung cancer. Go read it.

 Cute cub taken from his mother and taken care of by a Zoo in Bavaria. I guess it was a rescue operation. Picture from this blog.

• What's for dinner tonight? Well I made burgers two days ago and Gerry didn't have any. So we're having those AND I will make french fries. :) how about you?
• I love texts from a dog. Brilliant blog. too funny. 

That's all from the pistachio factory (i really like pistachios). talk to ya later.