The Traveling Bug.

In a week we'll be flying to our NYC destination! I'm excited and trying not to stress about it. The only thing stressful about traveling is attempting to pack appropriately for the weather.  This week it's raining in NYC, it's about 60 or so degrees and it looks like the day we land will be a wet one. Normally I don't care about weather forecasts. You learn to ignore them in California. The weatherman will announce rain in the late afternoon and then it won't happen. The good thing is we get to miss or not fly into thunderstorms, but what does suck is there's a chance of rain on the Friday-stupid 10 day forecast...I guess i'll just have to keep looking. I may not be packing light, but i will not bring my rain boots!

• Our friends are also traveling about going to a wedding, we wish them happy travels!
• Yesterday I wrote about my mini panic attack....felt good to let it out and I did take a walk after work which helped me out a lot. After dinner, I took a hot shower. My muscles were pretty stiff. If anyone has any advice on all of this, of course I welcome your emails or comments below. I'm still learning all about this, knowledge is important and I thank you in advance for any advice. 
• There's this enormous pile of clothing in our back room of things i don't want. I heard about threadflip.com. Wow, this is an awesome site! I may have to go through my stuff!!! So you can shop for clothing, accessories, shoes, jewelry etc...Just remember to check the sizes...Unfortunately that's the problem I think people will find, but seriously go take a look and if you have really nice items in your closet and you want to make some money, try it on threadflip.com, also tell me what you think!!!
• hot on Hautelook-Pretty in pink and lace. I really like the items featured here. They're pretty. All sorts of different designers and prices, so please go browse!
• Ideal on Ideeli-oh the cuteness of knitted dove. :) love some of the retro styles they add to their designs. too cute.
• Here's a story from stubbydog.com about Macy the Lonely Pitbull. A touching story with a happy ending and a children's box to create awareness about the breed. touches my heart. 
• I'd like to tell the app creators and the such that your facebook updates bite on the Samsung Galaxy. Where the hell is my share button???? Also, when it updated the last time, it looked super cool and then in like 10 minutes it went away...bastards. 
• Speaking of Apps. I shouldn't be allowed to play any games that i get addicted to....such as the Sims. I am a Sims addict. Well, now it's on  my tablet. eeeevil......Funny part is that their jobs start at 10am and if you know me, my tablet isn't with me at 10 am but sitting on a charger at home. lol. there will be a lot of "planting" going on to make some money....
• 2.99 Hot Topic Sale!
• Tonight is Bocce Ball. Hope we make our coach proud and win some more games! 
• Funny shit HERE.-this chick makes me laugh
• I need something.....on.....this....page....that.....makes.....me.....smile......awww i just entered random picture and saw like 6 of my own from this blog. AWESOMESAUCE!

in my search for a random picture i found this on a Christian blog that mentioned something about Romney, i tried to run but this picture is so cute.....pretty sure if you click it you'll go to the blog. Go check it out if you're Christian, do not go and mock someone else's beliefs, do that on your own page.

• I found a random facts website-go here and learn some edumacation, such as: The numbers '172' can be found on the back of the U.S. $5 dollar bill in the bushes at the base of the Lincoln Memorial. or The first known contraceptive was crocodile dung, used by Egyptians in 2000 B.C.

 Ok apple dumplings, i must go...have a wonderful dia.

Post numero dos for the dia....

I have to walk myself through all of this craziness: anxiety and fibro pain. The two are interconnected. What better way to go through the motions than by blogging about them. I feel that in this way i can bring myself into the present and calm myself down, therefore relaxing my muscles and releasing the tension. Not sure what brought it about but i am finding myself in the middle of a mini panic attack. I think it was because the other night i felt a pain in my left butt cheek (lol yup my ass felt a pain and now i'm freaking out about it). In traditional fibro style the pains start moving around. That area no longer hurts, but my shoulder  muscles started to tighten and i must have slept wrong, because my neck hurts. It's not so bad, because I am finally used to it. Sucks right? Well, i have to get over the sucky part and relax about it. The more I stress, the more pain i'll feel. I popped half an ativan. I hate benzo's, so i have to let go of that stress as well. The benzo's will teach me relaxation-I will not become an addict.  (hello self, let's let go of that stuff, it's inconsequential at the moment). With every breath i take I must release the tension. The breaths are shorter, so i have to force deeper breaths and ignore the heavier beating i'm feeling. Live in the present. Right here, right now. Not the other day, not an hour from now, but live right  now. Release the tension right now. Closing my eyes makes me feel at ease. Imagining that i'm weightless helps too. I turned on my  heater and got warmer too. My hands get freezing cold when i begin to stiffen up. Not sure if it's the ativan or the fact i averted my attention to something else but the hearts calmed down and my breathing has relaxed. I feel a little weighed down on my shoulders but I have to continue to think weightless thoughts. I'm also distracting myself and keeping busy. I get to go home soon, so I know that will  make me feel better. I definitely need a walk, but i will think about that later.
I feel a bit better. I didn't want to write every emotion down and get bogged down in negative stuff. Writing down  my thought process helped for me. Not sure if it will help for anyone else. But it's good for me to go back to when I need it.
:)

Sometimes my inbox knows me well.

When I checked my inbox this morning I read "Weight loss tips for Fibromyalgia sufferers" I don't remember specifying my disorder on their site, but wow that was a nice thing to see. I've been stressing about it a lot. I haven't gained a large amount of weight, but I was pretty active before all of this. So what is all of this anyway, you may ask? Remember when i had that radiating pain down my arm? Well the pains started traveling all over the place and I was getting annoyed, because this isn't the first time. Remember how I was annoyed by my chiropractor, well I decided that every time i was in pain or my back was bothering me, i was going to tell my doctor. So I did. We did some pressure point tests and she finally diagnosed me with Fibro. It's great, now i know what the hell is up with this brain fog, fatigue, random pains, headaches, migraines, anxiety, etc...every piece formed a circle and now i'm in the middle not wanting to move. Problem is I have to. I have to get outside and move around. I cannot be sedentary.  I didn't walk yesterday. I will today. Most sites say walking 6 times a week is key, I pretty much destroyed Sunday, so I have to get out there this week. I've been eating pretty well, but it's so hard to lose the muscle i created by working hard all those months. Time to push restart, gently of course. Now on with the crap....

i think i'm going to talk to this hand about nothing at all because i have no idea what to write about today.

 

i still like hot dogs. I just eat them in moderation-think three times a year.

•  Pistachios. I would really like some right about now. I'm feeling a bit snacky....I have no snacks at my desk. I have water...must drink water. I'm going to mention a snack that is more addicting than pistachios....CHEEEEEZ IT'S.  oh crap. time for something different...

• My handy dandy tennis ball rocks my knotty muscles. Anyone else with body pain? You may look like a bear scratching it's back against a tree, but seriously helps. 
• Ideal on Ideeli-just go check it...i can't decide on just one. there are sandals, marilyn monroe celeb style...etc...
• Hot on Hautelook-BeFine Skin cream looks good and affordable.
• Salad of the day-well i made some cole slaw last night with Apple Cider Vinegar added some green onions and mixed that into my red leaf lettuce, topped some carrots and black beans and some shredded chicken voila. :) yes i did have my smoothie too. 
• I am not very interesting today. 
• So remember this....